Rev. Crystal's Full Moon Blessings

I went to my session today with the hypnotherapist and we set our whole session to be on my relationship with money and feeling as if I would never have enough.  Interestingly I had to look at some of the past images and beliefs that helped to shape my understanding of what is possible and what is not.  I think there are a lot of cultural images and personal images that have helped to shape my relationships with money as well.

Interestingly I could not always come up with specific examples of discussing money in my childhood, or memories around childhood.  I think a lot of that was because my mother did not talk about money and we just new that we didn't have any.  She didn't have to say anything and the responsibility was on me as a child to prioritize the importance of the things I wanted.

So as an adult, I find I am discouraged around the incredible amounts of money that is required to raise a family. How do you have hope for the future stability of money when you have to spend upwards of 2,100 a month for childcare without support?  This is what we have been paying since my mother died and it is hard.  What we discussed is opening up the possibility of having money by changing my limited beliefs around my relationship with money and what I feel is possible.

So, the next steps for me will be around balance, dreams and believes.  I am going to do some fundamental things around balance.... like sleep.  I will start to work on getting more than 5 hours of sleep a night and structuring things better so that Sissy can sleep through the night.  When I have more sleep, I am more optimistic and am not calling for things that will reinforce my limited beliefs around sacrifice.  I will redefine what my dreams look like, especially when it comes to having money and doing things that require money.   And third I will continue to work on my limited beliefs and try to see myself with what we need so that I can continue to provide for all the children.

More to come.