Rev. Crystal's Full Moon Blessings

One of two times a year when the alignment of the world is in line with the things I am aspiring for in my own life.  Everyday that passes is another chance to achieve the goals set before me and each day I continue to strive for just that.  Finding the internal balance between what I expect of myself and what the world expects of me has been key in navigating what I need to do for my family and for those who depend on my sanity.  (those poor souls)

In reality I think 2009 has shown me that balance is not something you achieve and then you are set.  Balance is something that requires constant work and, like with a see-saw, it is a fragile act of give and take.  Without the flexibility of empathy, understanding, forgiveness, acceptance and accountability, the tipping of the scale to either side could be a permanent shift that doesn't recover.  the real art to balance is knowing that there is no such real thing.  Balance is what we create, it is not a set pattern that exists the same for everyone.

My scale has been altered this year because of unforeseen circumstances and now the skill of redefining "balance" is what I am working towards.  Each day I am closer, each day it makes more sense why I am in this battle to begin with. 



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"When you become aware of silence, immediately there is a state of inner still alertness.  You are present.  You have stepped out of thousands of years of collective conditioning" - Eckhart Tolle.   "Blessed Be oh Yemaya!! Yey Omo Eja" - "Mother Whose Children are the Fish"

Priestessing is a hard job.  No one tells you the amount of responsibility that comes with becoming a High Priest or Priestess until it is far enough down the road that you know there is no turning back.  and in reality, there is no way to possibly understand what that responsibility means until it is yours.

Walking in the role many times puts you at odds with people you love and can give you some sadness as well.  It can also be a rewarding place to be when someone is fulfilling their destiny and you have the opportunity to watch.  Regardless of the ups and downs of priestessing, the reality is that it is a hard job and one that can leave you feeling awfully isolated at times.

I think it is important for us all to remember that the Gods reasoning is not always ours and we will not always understand the road that lays ahead for ourselves or for those we support.  It is the road with many beginnings and a myriad of possible endings but none the less it will be filled with the necessary lessons that need to be acquired.  I may not understand those lessons but they are ever present and we all have to learn them; whether willingly or by being brought to our knees.

May we all learn the lessons without too many bruises.

The business of family life, being a full time counselor, High Priestess, mentor and author is a hectic and crazy balancing act.  I don't know how I got here but it has morphed into one of the most challenging of positions.  I enjoy the challenge but know that the energy I spend fulfilling these obligations have to be replenished somehow.

The past two weekends have been doing just that for me.  I went to a dreaded work retreat and was pleasantly surprised at the role this retreat played in helping me self care.  I got put in a condo on the beach with a view of the ocean in a room to myself.  I stayed up late eating cheetos and listening to the silence while I played on the computer.  I slept soundly to the sounds of nature and the rolling waves while I was suppose to be preparing for the upcoming work schedule.  The reality was that this moment of solitude was one of the most important reminders I could have gotten on how to take care of myself.

The next weekend was full of adventures that filled the driving force i have as a Pagan to connect with nature and with the Gods.  My mom, melissa and two of the kids went to the Egyptian Museum in San Jose.  it was beautiful and I promise to post some pictures in the near future.  it was a great day of reflection, sights, bonding and relaxing.  Seeing some of the images served as gentle reminders of what I do and what I am.  I felt wonderful in the atmosphere of history and deities.  On Sunday we went to Muir woods and sat in the woods listening to nature and seeing the wonders.  My mom, Jon, Kev, Robbie, melissa and Nayeli went and had a ball.  i bought a walking stick made of redwood to use as a staff and my mother got one too.  Being in the redwoods always reminds me of my spiritual core and coming to a place of balance.  it was beautiful.  Thursdays fullmoon was celebrated on the labyrinth surrounded by candlelight.  I walked the labyrinth and thoughts of all the accomplishments I have manifested this year and allowed the stress to roll away under Yemaya's moon. 

this weekend is beginning to be in the same theme as the priors.  Today was a tour of two metaphysical shops for Melissa, a nice lunch and spending time with the family.  Tomorrow is Roberts Bday so we are planning on relaxing in the sun and spending time with my boy.

Take the time out to enjoy all the wonderful things that may seem small but hold so much weight in the grand picture of life.  We all deserve happiness and balance in order to continue the road to fulfilling our highest good.  I am trying to remember mine, do you remember yours?

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"When you become aware of silence, immediately there is a state of inner still alertness.  You are present.  You have stepped out of thousands of years of collective conditioning" - Eckhart Tolle.   "Blessed Be oh Yemaya!! Yey Omo Eja" - "Mother Whose Children are the Fish"