Monday, February 07, 2011
The last year changed life for me and the family dramatically.  The new year has brought a lot of beautiful things along with some sad moments of realization, understanding and facing of mortality once again.  While there continues to be a lot of adjustment on the parts of almost everyone in our home, there is still a lot to do in the area of healing and adjusting to all the changes that have happened in our lives over the last year and a half.

A year ago my mother died and this past week I have gone to the hospital twice to visit my aunt.  She was in remission from breast cancer and it has returned.  In addition, she is very sick with other issues that are even more pressing than the cancer and the doctors are battling several issues at once.

I won't go into all the gruesome details of my feelings and the reminders of sitting in the hospital with my mother.  Instead I will say that it is a wake up call that the ebb and flow of life's trials are constant and it is not about being able to stay at one place in life for long.  Change is the only constant, right?

I have been working hard at coming back to my spiritual self over the last year and have made great strides in the past several months.  Hypnotherapy is one of the things that has really pushed me beyond the limits that I set myself within.  Once again I am looking at my aunt and thinking that I must prepare to fall back into the faith that I have been rebuilding.  The Gods are guiding me in learning how to love, live and let go.  Some of the hardest lessons I have ever had to learn.

So while I am considering what it means to hope you are not looking at the end of someone you love, I am also putting my faith in overdrive and pushing forward.  I know it is important for me to be present in this process with her and although it is a harsh reminder of the memory of my mother dying, it is also a honor to be there and sharing love when I can.

Finding spirit in the tough times can be one of the biggest and most difficult challenges there are but ones that can also propel us towards understanding things on a whole different level of spiritual connection.

2 comments:

Robert said...

Crystal,

I really enjoyed your presentation this year on Restorative Justice. I mentioned you on my blog in my yearly Pantheacon Review.

http://doingmagick.blogspot.com/2011/02/roberts-review-of-pantheacon-2011.html

Crystal Blanton said...

Thank you Robert! I always want to hear what others experiences were and get feedback so that I can improve my presentations and writing concepts. I am so glad you enjoyed it and I hope to keep in touch. Thanks for the mention in the blog and for buying the book! Blessings






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